Would have normally said that I’m a patient person. But it would seem that setting aside even 15 minutes to simply be and process all that is happening drives me half wild with impatience.

The timer is set, the time ticks down and I spend it wondering if there’s two minutes left or just 30 seconds…

I’m so jumpy trying to remember everything that needs doing, trying to see if I forgot anything.
I know what it is now… I’ve forgotten what it is to not do.